Lately / Community Service rant

There is a reason that there hasn't been a balance of entries about news stuffs and journal entries about how things have been going -- Because there is very little of one and quite a bit of the other. Most obviously because its the summer and most of the introspection that has gone on hasn't resulted in anything other than angst that had to be suppressed until it retreated to inevitably become an internal problem another day.

That and there haven't really been any get togethers with friends. Kevin, who is somehow both really funny and obnoxious at the same time (how that is possible in the first place I don't know) calls me several times a day, and I'm now left out of the fun he and his friends and Amy have. Don't know why, and it doesn't seem to be intentionally, at least consciously. And I never call anyone any more (not like I ever really have), and I'm never on AIM anymore, I don't even bother to load that up when I get online.

Essentially I'm half consciously, half subconsciously keeping myself distanced from people, keeping myself from giving too much of a damn so it doesn't cause me trouble when things inevitably change.

That and I'm enjoying the freedoms on being single, of course. Of not having to answer to someone else, of not having to worry about the inevitable pain that the end of things brings, despite some of the minor drawbacks.

And a spur of the moment get together's goin on tomorrow at a friends house since Ben S. is in town for a bit. I think the bad blood there was is gone, I had figured he was mad at me for a while, which appears to have cleared since then (seriously, who can hold a grudge for a long time?), it doesn't sound like at least one person will be there, no doubt because of hard feelings for both Ben and me. Oh well, makes no difference, really.

Got to go to the make up registry for my last semester on Thursday to try and register. I say try because they've sprung up the bullshit community service crap for graduation on me, which they shouldn't since I was in the last freshman class before they implimented that crap, and everyone else gets what, 4 years to do the forced labor / "volunteer" work since they hold your diploma hostage for it, and I have half of a school year to do that bullshit that I was exempt from in the first place (though obvious I don't like that policy for the other classes either), as though it wasn't bad enough that I couldn't graduate on time but now I have this crap tossed at me last minute that shouldn't even be required to graduate. How the hell is community service, something that criminals are forced to do as punishment, even warranted as now being a prerequisite alongside the 22 credits from passed classes to be able to graduate when it has nothing to do with classroom academics?

Then I'll get to cool off (hopefully), depending on the outcome of the registration process. The options are A. Transfer to a school without that community service requirement (if its at all feasible), B. Protest by not doing the community service crap but getting the credits that I need to get out of school in December, C. Be some sort of appeaser to the reich and get both the 3 credits I still need and the unnecessary community service, D. Not have to do the community service because I wasn't part of the first freshmen class hit with that crap, or E. an extreme option that is not very feasible at all: Dropping out.